the battle is starting

went to babysit tiffany and grace today, almost completely forgot :)
really tired, but it was fun playing hide and seek with her.

dinner later with sec4 prefects. was contemplating really hard if i should go
whenever i meet up with them, i just feel very out of place, uncomfortable and insecure. i thought maybe i shouldnt go, dont force myself to go through feelings that i dont want to, want to avoid them.
but then again, maybe this was to make me come face to face with my fears with my own peers?
i dont know, but i have a feeling this is going to be important,
so there im going. praying and singing on the way :)

i can feel darkness trying to close in around me already just after jyc camp where i made new commitments again to God.it is trying to make me doubt my covenant with God.
 i can already feel how fast the heaviness hits just after sunday and even after the htht with ivan, where encouragement was flowing.
After all the victories that God claimed back yesterday.

One day is all it takes for satan to try to rob me of my standing.
I can feel it, the stuffiness of it really.
this afternoon i didnt even realise i wasnt smiling until my dad pointed it out.
I told my spiritman to arise, and that God alone is my strength.
singing songs of worship all the way to tiffany's house and back home.

you will have no hold on me for I am a child of God. untouchable by you.
at the sound of my Father's Name, He will send you cowering in a corner.
I am a princess of God, beautiful because He made me in His image with His hands.
My hope is in the Lord alone, no one or thing has thepower to rob me of the joy God has placed in me.
The battle is starting, but i am prepared, for i know You are there with me.
You are my rock, my strong tower, my true comforter, my covenant holder.
  Amen.