God-given moments, God-given friends

i'm so thankful.

for the friends i have, the family i have,

the things that only You alone can set straight back, the wisdom You gave them, the decisions they made,

the ability to give us choices, and if we fall, You give us the grace to brush our knees, pull us up, and say

" it's all right my child, let's carry on."

When i run this race, i may not be running side by side with you.

we all have different routes, God-given missions to take,

but i know you will be cheering me on,

and i will be cheering too,

we will meet at the finishing line,

rejoicing.

Next 6 years isnt simply 6 years of studying,
but 6 years of lavishing by God.

The safest place is when im in His will.

Covenant- Binding agreement between me and God. A agreement that God will fufill His part, and i in turn will fufill my part.

its much more than a promise, its something watched over by our Father.

thinking of invites and dates

Darkness has no hold over me

 Let the morning bring me word of Your unfailing love,
for I have put my trust in You.
Show me the way I should go,
for to You I lift up my soul.
                                        Psalm 143:8


Dinner yesterday night went quite all right. I learnt something from it, maybe thats why i felt it was important to go, i somehow see God's hand in this.
i didnt feel the need to keep "pleasing" people when i didnt like the way they talked to one another by exchanging unkind words, to the degree that you dont know whether they are serious about it or not.

i didnt feel the need to always be in the midst of some conversation that i wasnt comfortable with, unlike the old me which would have talked, just for the sake of not wanting to feel excluded.
the old me would feel flustered that i couldnt find something/ add interesting things to the conversation.
the old me would feel very concious when ppl started taking pictures without me
the old me would feel left out when they talk about their jc lives, when they dont bother to share with me even if a unsure look was on my face.
God's presence was there with me that night, i felt calmness, even when i was just watching them talk away.

i didnt feel the need to do anything that i felt was 'fake' just to be in the midst of their conversation.


Looking back, i know why the dinner was important spiritually.
God was putting me in a place that i cannot ignore what i feel anymore, and just come straight, that i dont want to please them.
its also like a glimpse of isolation that is ahead of me. when i am flustered, God's calmness washes over me.

thank You Lord for showing me so many things, and for a few real friends who were there, and cared.


Thinking back on the last 2 days that the sudden dryness, stuffiness came, and now that i'm back standing on God's truth again,
i learnt that when God starts to open my eyes more, me grower stronger in Him, and when there is greater intimacy,
satan is afraid and wants to break down, sow doubt, destroy.
satan is afraid when a sincere prayer is said
satan is afriad when friends gather together and share the deep parts of their heart because he knows, thats when us, warriors are united and ready to fight for God

                                                    Father's day surprise! sibling-power unite!

                                                            tripped down to tampines today:)


my strength is in You alone Lord

the battle is starting

went to babysit tiffany and grace today, almost completely forgot :)
really tired, but it was fun playing hide and seek with her.

dinner later with sec4 prefects. was contemplating really hard if i should go
whenever i meet up with them, i just feel very out of place, uncomfortable and insecure. i thought maybe i shouldnt go, dont force myself to go through feelings that i dont want to, want to avoid them.
but then again, maybe this was to make me come face to face with my fears with my own peers?
i dont know, but i have a feeling this is going to be important,
so there im going. praying and singing on the way :)

i can feel darkness trying to close in around me already just after jyc camp where i made new commitments again to God.it is trying to make me doubt my covenant with God.
 i can already feel how fast the heaviness hits just after sunday and even after the htht with ivan, where encouragement was flowing.
After all the victories that God claimed back yesterday.

One day is all it takes for satan to try to rob me of my standing.
I can feel it, the stuffiness of it really.
this afternoon i didnt even realise i wasnt smiling until my dad pointed it out.
I told my spiritman to arise, and that God alone is my strength.
singing songs of worship all the way to tiffany's house and back home.

you will have no hold on me for I am a child of God. untouchable by you.
at the sound of my Father's Name, He will send you cowering in a corner.
I am a princess of God, beautiful because He made me in His image with His hands.
My hope is in the Lord alone, no one or thing has thepower to rob me of the joy God has placed in me.
The battle is starting, but i am prepared, for i know You are there with me.
You are my rock, my strong tower, my true comforter, my covenant holder.
  Amen.